At times I am very cynical and it shows all over my script and it's going to show all over my movie. It will be one giant cynical pot of madness. Normally, I'm not a spiritual person. I'm definitely not religious. But last weekend, as my sister performed reiki on me to alleviate my Bell's Palsy, I thought about the possibilities of my writing taking a toll on me. My main character can be such a negative person and it's revenge this, revenge that, has that negative energy harmed me? Also, I smelled smoke out of nowhere, prompting the thought of my main character smoking. I want him to quit smoking as well by the end of the movie. I also thought about the late Heath Ledger and his brilliant performance as the Joker. I hope my characters cause me no harm as they are fictitious and meant to only convey a story that I imagined.

On a lighter note, my faith in humanity has been partially restored. I've been the victim of many things and over the years, I've grown very untrustworthy of about 99.9% of the world. Yes, it's probably because of my environment. I never intentionally caused harm to the innocent though. I found a car key left in a Lexus SC400 earlier this year. I did not steal the car, I returned it to the owner by leaving a note on his car to contact me. He did not believe there were people who would do that anymore. I knew if someone stole my car because of a stupid error like that, I would be devestated. I just couldn't wish that pain on anyone else... except for thieves and other bad people. What exactly restored my faith? A kind sir working for customer service at AT&T. Presumably a Southern gentleman by accent, without any disputes, he agreed to refund us for being billed for some extra service crap we never asked for. My mother pays the bills and I don't live with her so we just found out today about this surcharge. Also, he credited us for another stupid charge we never asked for. I am also getting a check from school for money they owe us from 2006 after they changed their policies and I don't have to mail them a self-addressed and stamped envelope. Maybe I'm just having a lucky day but I am glad to see the underdog, myself, having some ups when everything else is pretty much going downhill.